Its been a long time since I posted my last blog.
Because I don’t have something to tell. And I don't even know how to put my emotions into words during the times that am in solitude. This past months am in a roller coaster ride. Full of different and mixed emotions. Happy, sad, painful. Until now I cannot comprehend things that had happened to me but I know God has a reason for everything and for sure it will be for the benefit of us. Just few people knew what I'm going through, those people that I know will never judged me and will never blamed me because I choose to love before the wrong person. I trusted too much. Being with somebody for such a long time will not give you a guarantee that you already knew the person very well. You will be surprised to find out that his not the person you thought you want to spend your life with.. You will just wake up one day and find out that all the dreams you both dream of were just a nightmare. You may ask me if I regret the years I spend with him? My answer will be a yes and a no. Yes because I should spare myself , my family and those people who knew us from all the pains, anger and bitterness that it caused. From the start it won't happen if I become too cautious and guard my heart from falling from him. No because with all that happen it makes me a stronger person than I am before. Hurts builds my character. Pain makes me realize that life is not always full of roses but life is full of thorns along the road and it's up to you on whether you will keep yourself from being thorn or you will take another route.
Leaving someone is so hard, its takes lot of courage to tell to that person that the love you have for each other suddenly fades away but it is even harder leaving without any explanation at all. No closure, no goodbyes, no last cry.
I don’t know where you are right now and not even a slight hope of wanting to hear from you again nor see even your shadow but I pray that you find peace and joy in your heart; maybe you just did what you think will be the best for you.. I have to live my life again without you.
Goodbye and thanks for everything….
